To hate or to love?
Why do I let you upset me?
your nothing at all to me
I hate you but I do miss you
why did it have to end this way?
I wish you would just come back and stay
but thats just a pipe dream
Why cant I just scream
Im aware of reality now
everything cant go my way
I know that is true but
I cant help but feel I love you
but that cant be true because I hate you
.... Right?
Mr know it all
Mr know it all think your so smart
well fuck you Mr know it all
I hate you Fuck off Mr know it all
Do the world a favour and shoot yourself
or Overdose I suggest trying Rat poison
Jump off a cliff make one person happy
even if that one person is me im sure you have no life
Fuck off Mr know it all I hate you
Broken Promises
Broken Promises Wilted away
like a new born flower in the month of may
smiles a plenty on girls and boys
but none will shine as bright as mine
the day I said those three words
I....Love....You
but after that the words turned black
because you said you dont love me back
you love someone else is what you said
and with that my whole world turned red
Suicidle tendancies (one of my best poems I was really depressed writing this one)
I sit in a corner in a room filled with black
hunched over like the spine in my back
as I sit with a knife I think and wonder
Is it worth it would they care
if I just cut here and there
and watched the blood ozz down my arm
Thinking of the reasons I caused this harm
to Myself and what Ive done
Until my Eyesight is blurry and gone
There I lay with no sight to see
knowing its almost over
but I black out and dont remember
how the months turned into December
Tough Feelings
I finally told you how I feel
I dont see what was the big deal
you handled it well with a smile and all
And when you were done you gave me akiss
a simple and Gentle kiss and for a moment
I was happy I was smiling and I could not stop it
it was just sitting on my face
a smile that was to be in that place
a smile that remains
in my heart for now and forever
Face stained red lost in my bed
mind gone to wonder
so many things ive pondered
Why am I stupid and dont think of feelings
why is my temper so evil and ruling
why must I think such negative thoughts
until they consume me and then I am lost
lost in time with out my mind
Temper that burns through my heart, my soul
Temper that releases until I cant withhold the pain
the burning of my temper throughout inside
Temper that hurts me and stains the sky
Stains it with a color so dark
a color that is black as black as my heart
Sleepless nights drunken days
my time seems to fade away
empty mind at loss for thoughts
how could I sleep with all I've got
a room so dark no light to spare
lost of noise now is that fair?
drunken parents sick with laughter
peace and serenity is all im after
I try to scream though quiet and muffled
tears are there for a reason unknown
when theres no need to imitate
with this strange thing that is fate
A kick in the heart was what I got
when the moon fell and you forgot
Blasted tears that stain my face so red
laying sleepless in nothing but a bed
eyes open wide in a room so dark
the kick that left a deep imprinted mark
was of the one I thought of so dear
Ill sit and listen with nothing to hear
but the insults and putdowns
by those I hold so dear to me
(last 3 unfinished and untitled)
